Heart v. Mind.
Ever since I met my husband, I’ve wrestled with my heart v. my mind. Before I met him, I thought wanted to move to a big city, have a high powered-all consuming job, a cute little apartment and maybe get married when I was 26-28. Mind. Then, from the day my 18-year old self spotted that tall, dark, tan, handsome Silverton farm boy, I knew I wanted to spend the rest of my life with him....
Thought a lot about love lately. What it means for different people. What it means in different ways. But mostly about what love means to me. Specifically the love I have with the boy I married. It’s had many stages. From a nearly instant crush, to a friendship; from a head-over-heels, cry all 384 miles home for a summer away love, to a drudging through conflict love; from a love that...
Things I want to do this summer.
Inspired by Emily. Go camping. Go fishing. Sit by the fire and make s’mores. Make & drink Peach mojitos. Can peaches cherries. Done and done. Make jam. Read 4-5 books. Make brunch on the weekends. Take walks at night. Go wine tasting. Go vintage shopping. Have a picnic lunch with my husband at his work. Just to name a few.
Sometimes I feel like everything about me conflicts. I want to move to the city, but I want peace and privacy. I want to go out more, but I love to stay at home. I want to simplify my life, but I’m also slightly afraid to. I love to be around other people, but I choose schedules which prevent me from doing so. I want to be adventurous, but I am cautious. I want to be fearless, but I...
wanted. bare feet. healthy tummy. fresh juice. a big white bed. ocean....– Aubrey Road: wanted
You know what I’m really good at? Wanting. You know what I’m not so good at? Patience. I like to think that I am a lovely combination of driven + dreamer. But I’m really much better at dreaming, pretty good at being driven for a short amount of time and then I tend to fizzle out. Or decide that things aren’t for me. Especially if those things start to get hard, or...